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Bismillah..

Its 31st May 2010..

How time flies..

Its hard to imagine that I already completed all the clinical attachments

Now, the end is coming..

By hook or by cro0k, I must say goodbye to them..

Even its hard to do so..

It had been pretty impressive weeks since I started my clinical at HSNZ..

My dean supposed to visit me for the last time, but unfortunately, Dr Eddy could not make it..

He had a meeting in Shanghai..

Just landed at KLIA at 1500, so he missed MH flight to Terengganu at 1430..

Herm..

I drove myself back home with tears..

Hahaha..

Seriously, I had fun there..

Okay, I am crying again..

I am surely gonna miss them..

The doctors, and the pharmacist of course..

That mystery ICU doctor with spectacles and surgical mask..

The staff nurse, hospital attendants, hospital cleaner, the one and only that annoying Kak Mah..

Hehe.. Sorry Kak Mah..

All the PPK, PRP, PPF..

Receiving well wishes from them..

Wishing me to ‘bertemu jodoh awal’..

Hahaha..

Apekah..??

Btw.. Its nice huh when someone wishes for your happiness right??

(^_^)

Okay, now I am going to cheer myself up..

A lil bit unhappy..

I miss to be in a hospital..

Last word from me..

I LOVE HOSPITAL..

(^_^)

Hermm, till then,

Saya sudahi dengan sepotong lagu..

Gelimat.. Gelimat.. Gelimat.. Mat.. Mat..

Sekian, Assalammualaikum..

OCD.. For Good or For Bad? (^_^)

Bismillah..

My aunt is a psychologist, graduated from one of the local universities in America.. We are so cl0se and I shared everything with her.. But there’s certain things which I disagree with her.. Last time we talked was about mental disorder.. Haha..

Somehow, I am kinda interested doing some reading regarding mental health problems.. Come on, its interesting to watch movies about those people that suffer from mental illness..

When I was doing attachment at Specialist Clinics in HSNZ, there were always psychiatric patients will come to take their medications.. Some of them sometimes were over chilled, extra happy, yes, that was the effect of the DRUGS.. But for how long they will depend on the drug? Haiihh.. Pity them I must say..!

I think I am having a slight OCD.. I do not know why I keep on washing my hands every 5-10 minutes.. Then I will make sure that my bag will always have that Dettol Hand Sanitizer.. I just do not feel hygiene by touching the lift button, the table, the door, and etc.. I felt very vulnerable towards microorganisms, germs.. Yeah sometimes I feel like I am the ‘MONK’ in the Monk Series.. Haha..

I was come to schock when I figured out myself was actually having the symptoms of OCD.. And of course I googled on it.. And as for me, the best words that defines OCD is people are troubled by intrusive thoughts, images, impulses or doubts..

Usually these are also accompanied by compulsions where the person has to either do or think something to make themselves feel better or to prevent bad things from happening.. [okay I copy this without paraphrasing it]..

Then another thing is, sometimes I would telling myself that if I do something or that if something happens by the time I count to a certain number, than I like....add points of good luck for the day.. Hoho..

But, sometimes it distracts my prayer.. U know, that was-was thing.. SANGAT2 BAHAYA.. When we are looking for perfection, sometimes would be a mistake for us..

Please, avoid was-was..

Till then.. Have a blessed day ilyana.. err and, yaa.. those who accidentaly read this crappyyyyy blog..

Assalammualaikum..

p/s : OCD stands for obsessive-compulsive behaviours.. (^_^)

She Watches The Sunset..

its midnight and

my eyes just staring at the wall opposite

no sleep, no dreams,

i sit and watch the drama

unfolding before me

like an empty canvas

waiting for an artist

i wait in anticipation

wondering when and wondering why

i did all i could,

so i believe so,

what is happening is beyond my grasp

and i can only watch as a mere spectator

a mere spectator in my own life

one moment its all the way up,

the next its hanging in balance,

the tension is nerve wracking

patience is all i have

and patience is all that i need

as i watch the things unfold

and let things take shape at its own pace

i waited a long time for this,

so what difference it is going to make

to wait a little bit more

but for how long should i be the villian in my own life

i wish i could answer all the questions running in my mind,

i wish i could end all the battles being fought inside,

i wish i do not have to wait for long

i wish, i hope and i believe

(maybe) tomorrow will be better than today

p/s :The best remedy for those who are afraid, lonely or unhappy is to go outside, somewhere where they can be quiet, alone with the heavens, nature and God. Because only then does one feel that all is as it should be and that God wishes to see people happy, amidst the simple beauty of nature. – Anne Frank

of 21st May..

Bismillah..

I know that birthday is not just about being remembered by others nor waiting for gifts. (I might be asking everyone for it though. ^,^)

Receiving well wishes from family, friends.. But not so many who remembered my birthday.. [yes,I didnt put my birthdate in my facebook profile.. Just wanna know how many pe0ple will remember me if the facebook didnt notify them.. ]

Receiving only 30++ text messages and I replied all those messages a lil bit late as the birthday girl herself did not remember her birth day and was sleeping like a log during the night of her day..! [that was so pathetic!]

Woke up at 5am.. Performing prayer while waiting for the Subuh and made me thinking..

For 20 years I have lived.
For 20 years I have loved and be loved.
For 20 years I have had friendships.
For 20 years I have laughed and cried.

HE granted me 20 years of bliss.
How many more do I have left??

The rainbow was captured during my way to hospital.. Isnt it beautiful?

I Wrote Mostly Craps.. (^_^)

Bismillah..

What do u think when someone said to me like this..

‘You know what sis, you are a mutant..’

I was like..

Hah?? Mutant?? What’s that supposed to mean??

‘ I dunno, I just said it.. You are a mutant!’

Then I replied..

‘Well, I guess mutant is something that is mutated.. So, you are right about that.. I am a mutant!

Haha..

‘ No lah sis, you are like a Mutant X!’

I was burst out into laughter..

I do not know how this kid imagined me..

Maybe like this..

OMG, please, buruknye..!

Hehe..

p/s : the conversation between me and that so-adorable-but-a-lil-bit-annoying kid [haha] was actually in Malay, but I prefer to write in English to make it more dramatic.. * dramatic laa sangat *

well.. I have to lay my back on the bed now, gazing at the ceiling, wondering what tomorrow will bring to me..

Last night I dreamt someone asking for a hand in marriage.. but I cant clearly see the face of the man! OWHHHH NOOOOOOOO...!!!!!!! Can I consider that as a good news? Well.. (^_^)

Go to sleep laaah..

Assalammualaikum..

Nunyte everyone..!

Keep on Dreaming.. Make It Real.. InsyaAllah.. (^_^)

Bismillah...

I am just a student so working without getting a handsome pay would sometimes make me down..

Hehe..

But hey, remember, Allah will reward u m0re as long as u sincere to do all the jobs..

The PRP got rm3.7k for the starting, well, the same goes to a doctor whose gone for a housemanship..

Excluded the OT, on-call.. And trust me, the pay will get higher and higher each year..

Depends on who runs the country and the national budgets also..

Bet me, industrial pharmacy pays u even more.. RM5k as for the basic..

Fresh grads will get rm5k as for the starting..

I think its worth it.. Fuhh..

White Nissan Latio is on the list after getting the first pay..

Haha.. Sounds cool huh..

Sorry, industrial area doesnt suits me..

I chose to stay in clinical and community area..

Ya Allah, I need to study more n more..

Hard and hard..

Days and days..

To re-pay my mum and my grandparents..

But no matter what, I would never be able to re pay them..

Huuu..

Even I give them hundreds of millions of billions of trillions.. blaa.. blaa..

I dream a lot.. Lotsss.. Lotsssss...

Fine.. Call me whatever you want..

Call me Mat Jenin Moden..

I’ll make my words..

InsyaAllah..

I do not want to be rich..

All the money is not for me..

Its for my mum, my grandparents..

My children..

I am not going to spoil them but I’ll make sure they get everything they want..

As long as,

‘U get A in the exams, or scored 95% and above, Ibu akan bagi what you want..’

Heee..

Thats what am going to say to my children..

(^_^)

Btw, kita hanya mampu merancang, but Allah will decide..

Semoga ilmu yang diperoleh akan diberkati..

For the sake of Islam, I will fight to my last breath..

Keep studying..

Chayokk2...

Thanks For The Memories.. (^_^)

Bismillah..

Now allow me to chronically arrange my thoughts and remember back my clinical experiences..

Ahha.. I think I am not going to write it now..

Come on, 2 weeks more to finish it..

So I guess I am going to hold it first and let the last day to come..

I really thank Allah for giving me the nicest seniors and pharmacist staff I could have! =D

They treated me nicely all the days.. Even sometimes I cried as the burden was on me!

And I have to say that the best part ever was at outpatient..

I smiled all the day even though the patients sometimes annoyed me with that so0ooo freaking hatred faces while waiting for their numbers..

I do the dispensing.. Without wearing the labcoat..

But Adli and Kak Ayu covered me when the U48 scolded me..!

Pheww.. Nice one.. Thanks a lot! Hehe..

Still remember, dispensing the medicines for the first time..

I am shaking hahha..

Even the drugs was just simple..

Like dipenhydramine, difflam gargle, chlorpheniramine, magnesium trisilicate..

So, goodbye clinicals..

See you in the next 3 years insyaAllah..

I'' be reconsidering a new hospital for the placement of clinical..

Maybe the-s0-famous Hospital Selayang??

Hopefully..

InsyaAllah..

(^_^)

Do Not Worry.. Be Happy.. (^_^)

Bismillah..

What happen when there’s a day,

Which u might say that u had a lovely day..

But suddenly..

The unexpected thing happens..

*sigh*

Make me recalled my day..

Re-think of what have I done for the whole day..

Did I said something bad about someone?

Ermm.. I have no idea..

Its fine..

Kaffarah kepada dosa2..

Ya Rabb..

Jadikan ujian Mu ini sebagai penghapus dosa-dosaku..

Be Happy, Dont Worry!

You’re the chosen one..

(^_^)

At least, orang tu did give the phone number instead of hit and run away..

** the bumper and the bonnet need to be removed and replaced with new one.. **

Betul Ke Haram..?

Bismillah..

Again, this entry was written during my sleepless night..

Accompanied by a cup of hot milk..

First day of attachment at Outpatient Pharmacy..

Well, had been in Farmasi Klinik Pakar for 2 m0nths bef0re..

Somehow, the situation still the same..

Hundreds of prescriptions..

Or can I say, thousands???

I guess non Malaysian k0t.. Hehe.. Kalo Malaysian dah sure kene tukar nama ni.. Murka sultan teng0k ni.. Hehe.. Well the ladybirds hanyalah untuk c0ver the RN [registration number].. Privacy ttp kena dipelihara okeii.. ??'... (^_^)

Went back home at 6pm..

Must say, I am exhausted..

But, 3 weeks m0re to get it over..

I am gonna miss the pharmaceuticals thingy..

Trust me, clinical phases is the best part ever in your studies..

And hospital settings is the greatest workplace to start your proffesions..

Sorry engineers.. Theee.. Heee..Heee..

At first, I was thinking of celebrating the Mother’s Day..

But, I did hear celebrating Mother’s Day is HARAM..

Well u g0t to read the article which I’ll give the backlink..

But, lets just consider the dinner tonight was like an ordinary dinner..

I called some hotels to reserve for the buffets..

But it was fully-reserved..

Oh my.. Last minute person.. Okay.. Put the blame on me..

So, we had the dinner at Chilada Seafood, somewhere in the middle of the town..

Overall, the dinner went smooth and mouth-crunching. And it was all good, because the bill was on mine. Haha.. Nevermind then..

MARA, please increase the pocket m0ney! Heeee...

Please read this article.. Take your time for the sake of ISLAM.. I found this thing beneficial..

http://dakwah.org/blog/?p=135

InsyaAllah..

Sharing is Caring.. Caring is Lovastatin.. Oppsss.. my bad.. (^_^)

Its an-anticholesterol drugs..

Hee.. Peace.. Salam A'laik..